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Saturday, August 15th, 2009
Saturday
August 15th, 2009 at 11:11pm
movin!
We got approved to move into the apartment so we are for sure moving to university place!

Current Mood: excited
Wednesday, August 12th, 2009
Wednesday
August 12th, 2009 at 11:21pm
life is swell eah?
So I've been married for 2 months now, graduated from gene juarez 3 weeks ago, have a huge interview with kenneth L in poulsbo tomorrow and im moving in 3 weeks to university place! Jam packed life I have go on. I really hope I get this job at Kenneth L!!! Ill keep my fingers crossed!

Current Mood: excited
Tuesday, January 6th, 2009
Tuesday
January 6th, 2009 at 2:58pm
I miss the good old days
I miss 9th grade, I miss the friends that I thought would always be by my side, I miss high school, and staring at abe in awe because he was so beautiful, I miss movie nights at my house watching the lost boys, movie nights at janas watching bio dome, I miss going to endfest every year, and talking about guys we liked, I miss mr. Weimillers science class, and mr. Polks algebra 2 class, I miss art class even though I sucked at it, I miss silly dares, falling down stairs, swinging for hours watching day become night, I miss alice, and rachel, tree, and jana, I miss the friendships we thought would never end, I miss talking endlessly about a new guy I met, I miss disneyland, and holding hands, and kissing as we waited in line, I miss california, and attempting to make you art, I miss taking pictures, and living carelessly, I miss smoking pot at grandparents houses late at night, taco bell runs at midnight, I miss not having bills, or a worry in the world, I miss having my sister in my life as my best friend, I miss my best friend who decided to end our friendship when our relationship ended, I miss all of my ex's who made me laugh my ass off, I miss andrew for being dopey, pat for being the first guy I dated, I miss josh for making me laugh I also thank him for being the first to break my heart, I miss larry for sticking with me for so long; thank you for treating my badly you helped me grow, I miss seth for being my best friend and making me feel so beautiful and letting me know I was worth while, I can't say I really miss chris but thank you for being a dick you helped me open up my eyes, I miss late night talks with my sister staying up til 3am talking about relationships, I miss road trips, and slurpee runs, I miss valentines day picnics in california, I miss being sung to, and crying so hard, I miss homework, and hanging out at the locker before class, I miss being super skinny and thinking life was so easy, I miss driving puff puff, I miss being the youngest at work, now im the oldest, late night aim conversations lasting until the wee hours of the morning, I miss coloring my hair every color of the rainbow, I miss underage drinking and smoking, I miss prank phone calls, and playing girl talk at age 17, I walking to the mall after school every friday, and skipping with nick, I miss seeing adam wear my stripped tights, I miss hugs from dear friends, and passionate kisses from amazing boy friends, I miss cuddling on the bedroom floor kissing for hours, I miss making out in the back of the love machine, and hanging out at the skatepark with josh, jed, and keri, I miss bagles and pop from safeway every morning, I miss riding the bus, even though at the time I hated it so much, I miss jen who always stuck by myside even though she was a cheerleader and I was a freak, I miss going to the gym, and eating subway, I miss being careless, thinking no one could ever break me down. I miss being 18 and how cool it was that I could get pierced and tattood legally, I miss hearing gossip, and sitting out for PE, I miss food science and cookin5g for friends, I miss hanging out in the parking lot after school because we were all so cool, I miss going to shows, and drinking jones cola, I miss crazy makeup, and even crazier hair, I miss jumping in mud puddles, and dancing in the rain, changing clothes in the school parking lot, I miss playing under the rain gutters as it was raining, I miss early morning calls to tree when we went to different schools, I miss fights and making up, I miss watching infovision commercials, and cartoons, I miss thinking relationships would last forever, and crusing the town on a friday night, I miss sleep overs with friends, I even miss the way the cafeteria smelled of pizza and fries, I miss being late to class, I miss disection day in science class, brian never wanted to get his hands dirty, I miss grading papers, and delivering messages, I miss wondering if I passed my finals, and what grades were on my report card, I miss drives to southcenter, rainforest cafe, and bounty hunting, I miss the good old days when friendships and relationships were the only cares in the world.
I often wish I could go back in time and relive every moment I've ever had. All the hardships all the good times. I miss every single person who has touched my life in some sort of way. Wheather it be good or bad.

Current Mood: accomplished
Monday, June 26th, 2006
Monday
June 26th, 2006 at 1:57pm
wtf
So seth broke up with me. Why i dunno somethin about me havin issues but who doesnt ya know. I shouldnt be so hurt, but i cant help it. I love that boy with everything in me. I guess being single isnt so bad. Im hurt, im furious, im angry. Death never looked so good as it does right now............

Thank you for breaking my heart......
Saturday, June 24th, 2006
Saturday
June 24th, 2006 at 9:21pm
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 66%
Stability |||||||||||| 43%
Orderliness |||| 20%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 43%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
Artistic |||||| 30%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Narcissism |||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 43%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 70%
Romantic |||||| 30%
Avoidant |||||||||||||| 56%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency || 10%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63%
Cautiousness |||||| 23%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical security |||||||||||||||| 70%
Physical Fitness |||||| 24%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Paranoia |||||| 30%
Vanity || 10%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 43%
Female cliche |||||||||||||| 56%
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Saturday, March 11th, 2006
Saturday
March 11th, 2006 at 7:09pm
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY BABY! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU SO MUCH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SETH...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
Monday, January 9th, 2006
Monday
January 9th, 2006 at 8:38pm
* le sigh *
So its been 1 full day since Seth has left. I already miss eating dinner with him and cuddling with him all through the night. I miss waking up to his gorgeous face. I miss him wrapping his arms around me and telling me how much he loves me. I miss doin my hair with him, and i miss the way it feels after my hair is all done how he always said wow babe your so sexy. lol little things like that i miss so dearly. I get to see him in 31 days which excites me like no other! I just hope these 31 days go by so fast so i can be in his arms again.

Current Mood: sad
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
Sunday
December 11th, 2005 at 7:50pm
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: loved
Thursday, September 8th, 2005
Thursday
September 8th, 2005 at 3:58am
w00t??????
Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...delicious
Your hugs are...friendly
Your eyes...sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...irresistable
Your smell is...amazing
Your smile is...hypnotising
Your love is...one of a kind
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Current Mood: sick
Monday, May 30th, 2005
Monday
May 30th, 2005 at 4:40pm
uhmmm yea
So uhm yea, I bought the new gorillaz cd, it fuckin rocks my panties. And I got Morrissey's not so new but new to me cd. It also rocks my panties. Though it makes me think of my ex. * le sigh * but yea. I've been doin good, I guess. All is well. I miss my puppy alot. I got his ashes back last week. I cried, of course. He was such a sweet lil puppy. * tear * but yea, so ive been workin non-stop. Tryin to save up money for vacation. Im long over due for one. any way enough of my blabbin about stupid shit. im outtie all. Later..........much

<3 Me

Current Mood: sad
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
Saturday
May 14th, 2005 at 8:13pm
this love is muderous
Today was the worse day of my entire life. I cried so much today i puked. Today I had to take my puppy to the vet to get put to sleep. He was 18 years old and was just not happy anymore. So I wrapped him in his blanket and had my daddy drive us to the vet. The vet came in with the needle and started to give my puppy the shot. I wanted so badly to yell at her and to tell her to stop, that I wasnt ready to say good bye. But I knew it was time. before she could finish the entire dosage, he passed away in my arms. I didnt even get to say good bye it happened so quickly. So the vet left me, my daddy, and my puppy in the room. I hugged my puppy and told him i loved him so much and told him i was so sorry. but to be honest he looked so peaceful laying in my arms. I knew he was in a better place, and i knew he was no longer in pain. The hardest thing i ever had to do was watch my baby die in my arms. * wipes tears * I love him so much

Current Mood: depressed
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
Sunday
March 20th, 2005 at 11:41am
well well well
It's been awhile since i posted anything. I havent really anything interesting to say. I get to go see atreyu, unearth, and norma jean tuesday with my favorite gal, my lil sis. So that should be fun. I always have fun with her. Any way yea i have nothin to say. so yea later

Current Mood: sad
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
Tuesday
March 8th, 2005 at 3:40pm
the joys of dieting
So ive been on my stupid diet for 8 days now, and lemme tell you, IT SUX. Though I have lost nearly 10 pounds. But man oh man, I miss eating candy lol. But alas im on the road to being crack skinny. It will be a beautiful thing. Any way just thought id blab about how i hate my diet, but love loosing weight. any way later all

Current Mood: hungry
Sunday, March 6th, 2005
Sunday
March 6th, 2005 at 8:27pm
aww
This year's love had better last,
heaven knows it's high time,
I've been waiting on my own too long.
And when you hold me like you do
it feels so right
oh now
I start to forget how my heart gets torn
when the hurt gets thrown
feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles and time again
cut like a knife
oh now
if you love me gotta know for sure
'cause it takes something more this time
than sweet sweet lies
oh now
before I open up my arms and fall
losing all control
every dream inside my soul
when you kiss me on that midnight street
sweep me off my feet
singing ain't this life so sweet

This year's love it better last

This year's love it better last

'Cause who's to worry if our hearts get torn
when that hurt get thrown
don't you know this life goes on
won't you kiss me on that midnight street
sweep me off my feet
singing ain't this life so sweet

Current Mood: lonely
Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
Wednesday
March 2nd, 2005 at 3:47pm
hott fuckin damn!
Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Name:
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:116
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Current Mood: amused
Friday, February 18th, 2005
Friday
February 18th, 2005 at 3:45pm
whoa my sister loves me!
KittenasaCatx: i dont have a poo hole
Xmylastxtearx: yes you do i stuck my cock in it last night
Xmylastxtearx: i mean errr uhm...
KittenasaCatx: hahahah
KittenasaCatx: cutie

Current Mood: hyper
Monday, February 14th, 2005
Monday
February 14th, 2005 at 3:40pm
Happy Valentines
So today is Valentines, and all I have to say is Happy Valentines day babe! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: loved
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
Thursday
February 10th, 2005 at 8:49pm
The backyardigans fuckin rock
I'll admit to it. I have become obsessed with the backyardigans. It is the damn near cutest show I've ever seen. But any way yea I just wanted to inform everyone of my new obsession. OOOoh and I would like to say thank you sooo much for comforting me. It's so nice to know who my real friends are.

Current Mood: hopeful
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
Saturday
February 5th, 2005 at 11:16pm
uhm yea
So this mornin I woke up to what I thought was just a dream. But when I opened my eyes I seen my dad leaning down next to my bed, crying. His crystal blue eyes, were now red and filled with pain. I didnt know what was going on. I took me a few moments to realize I wasnt dreaming. My dad never cries, so I knew something had happened. As I sat up in my bed, tears falling from my eyes, he told me that my grandpa had passed away. I didnt understand what he was telling me, I heard him, but I couldnt comprehend. I repeated back to him ' Grandpa is dead ' and my dad said in his trembling voice ' yes ' I sat there in my bed tears falling down my face asking my dad why. He began to cry harder and turned from me and walked away. I climbed out of my bed, and put on my pj pants and I walked in to the living room. There on the couch was my mom, the women who has always comforted me when I was down, sitting on the couch crying so hard. I sat next to her I hugged her and told her I loved her. Though I knew my words would not ease her broken heart. So I sat on the couch with my mom both of us crying. My dad was making arrangements for them to fly back to indiana today. As I sat on the couch, the memories of me and my grandpa came back. I remember the first day of kindergarten my grandpa walked me to school. I held on to his hand tightly because I was so scared. We soon got to the class room where my grandpa told me it was time for me to let go of his hand. I remember crying and telling him I didnt want him to go because I was scared. And he told me I had to be a big girl. I let go of his hand, and he left me in the class room. But I knew everything would be okie because he said he would be there after school to pick me up. I also remember going on walks with him and my baby sister. She use to love to go on walks with him. He would pull her in her wagon and we'd go pick blackberries and mom would make dessert from them. I don't have many memories of my grandpa, because he's always lived in Indiana, and my family and I have always lived in Washington. Just this last summer, my mom, sister, dad, and I all went to indiana to see our family. It was so nice to see them all. My sister and I stayed with my grandma and grandpa while we were there. We both remember waking up to my grandpa laughing as he watched I love lucy. And the way he would talk would make me and my sister giggle. He had a Tennessee accent, so words he would say would make us laugh so hard. I'm really glad I got to see him one last time. He really was a kind loving person. I know I will miss him dearly.

Current Mood: depressed
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
Wednesday
February 2nd, 2005 at 10:56pm
uhmm wow
Maybe life isnt so bad? Maybe I truly am happy? Hmm this could be an interesting perspective on life. OOOo and I just wanted to take the time to tell seth that I am very sorry about what you are having to go through right now. I wish more than anything I could just hug you and tell you we can be strong together. You mean the world to me and the last thing I want is to having you hurt again. Just know that I am always here for you no matter how far apart we are.

Current Mood: sad
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